Changes

Change is imminent.

That's what they always say. I can't deny this, it's just so true and yes I've changed, you've changed and we've changed. After so long time hiding how actually I feel and what I have in the deep side of mine, suddenly things just burst out like a leaked water pipe with thousands newton of pressure. Billions and millions of words will not help, not if you're not willing to listen and accept it, no matter good or bad one. I'm getting into more and more situations, nice and not both, and more and more burdens and pressure I can feel now, it's holding my breathe till I feel I could stop breathing anytime soon. It's not easy at all, too much to care, handle and balance. Still, I am standing here, willing to accept, listen and change after all the criticisms. I know that's what I supposed to do, and that's why I'm doing it, with the hope that you can understand and get some supports in return. But you'll never get it, no matter how many times I try. I should have known earlier before putting myself into all this troubles. And now I'm stuck. Hooray for me. Please, don't push me too hard to the end of corner cause you'll never know what I'll do to get escaped from the trap which minimizing my space to think and breath. It'll never be a judgement, not till you proved your words.