We heard what we both said just now, perhaps it's really too much for us, I can feel the tiredness in every single inches of my body, from inside out. You'll never understand how it feels, cause you'll never ever put a single drop of efforts to stand in my shoe, be at my side and see things in my way. You feel everything should goes in your way, under your control and yes, so far they are. But have you ever look clearly into faces of those who're standing aside, watching while you're treated like a king? How imbalance it was and how hard to forget the fact that you're actually the same like us, every single of us. When I say I was just passing the message up to you, was actually sending the one from the deep of my heart, it's really imbalance and I can feel it triple more than others. But you'll never get it, always expecting me and others to beg for you, perhaps I am the same as well, but at least, I'm working so hard here with my bare hand, not based on the fame and historical stories in the past. We're different in so many senses, asking for the word "sorry", it's easy to say or even shout it loud, but it's not about asking or getting a "sorry", but getting understanding and acceptance for being who I am. I am in the shit-est situation ever, where you can only work more, stressed more, pressured more than others, but there's not even a tiny space for you to complain, not even a single word. Let's talk about fairness now! Is this fair enough? Was expecting and hoping, at least there'll be someone who can share everything with you, who can understand you when you in need and accept you in the way you're. If you're asking someone who'll change because of you? Sorry, I would never be that person and you knew this since the day we met.
It's too much, all these are accumulating since don't-know-when ago, over-expected that I could get along with it, sincerely apologizing, I can't. Please, always remember this, things that you can do, I can do as well. Thinking of restricting me? Think of yourself at the first place please dude.
This is really too much, letting me to handle with your attitude and faces shown while I'm under pressured and burdened, wondering what's playing in your mind? Needing someone to take care of you for 24hours? Hoping I can be professional in multi-tasking but seriously I'm just an ordinary girl with no super power to handle more than my own problems, maybe I'm taking the wrong position, you're better in this perhaps? Just give me a word then I'll know what to do, since we'll never reach the equivalent point, there's someone who must be up, and down. All the best, thanks with sincerity.
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